Here's a stupid conversation between Bush and Rice. :P
(not real of course haha)
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
Thursday, July 10, 2008
It's a metal concert, you will be pushed!
Metal concert crowds, they can be violent at times, but most of us go there knowing that we might get hurt. However, we know that most of the times if we get hurt, it's not really because someone wanted to hurt us on purpose. It just means that the people around you got excited by the band, by the song, and wanted to move and try to get closer to the stage. These things happen at a metal concert. There are mosh pits that form in the crowds. If you go into a pit, chances are you will get hurt. People also crowd surf and it's all normal at metal concerts. The person that is crowd surfing can get hurt by falling, but he knows that might happen.
Now here's what I can't stand about metal concert crowds, the people that try and get as close to the stage and expect not to be pushed, expect not to have their fragile electronics broken, and expect that no one will try to take their spot in the crowd. Well guess what, these things happen all the time at these type of events!
Here's why I'm writing this, and it's a perfect example. When I went to Heavy MTL, I decided to crowd surf when Disturbed started playing. I got pretty banged up when I was up there, I got hit in the groin and on the head, but I knew that this might happen, so it was fine. What I didn't like about this is that when I fell down, this guy came to me angry and complaining and almost got into a fight with me. Why did he come to see me? He was wearing glasses close to the stage and when I fell, his glasses fell to the ground. Like I said, I almost got into a fight with this guy, I don't know if he was just pretending to be tough or not. How come I didn't get into a fight? Simple, he was pushed by someone that was trying to get to the front of the stage. He was then angry at this guy. The pusher wanted to fight him, but his friend didn't let him. While they were arguing, I just turned around and started headbanging.
This was not the only thing that I observed when I was at the festival. Some other things were parents that brought their kids at the front and this girl that wanted to be at the front, but not be pushed and her boyfriend almost screaming at people that were pushing. People, get a grip! It's a METAL CONCERT! YOU WILL GET PUSHED AT THESE! I'm really getting sick and tired of these fucking pussies that complain every time they get pushed!
As for electronics, I've heard people complain that there cameras or whatnot get busted because of the people pushing. Again, don't bring those! I don't bring them for a reason, I don't want them broken. I just bring my cellphone because it's not an expensive one!
I think I'll stop writing here, I'm getting a little pissed off just thinking about these people complaining for things that they should know WILL HAPPEN!
Now here's what I can't stand about metal concert crowds, the people that try and get as close to the stage and expect not to be pushed, expect not to have their fragile electronics broken, and expect that no one will try to take their spot in the crowd. Well guess what, these things happen all the time at these type of events!
Here's why I'm writing this, and it's a perfect example. When I went to Heavy MTL, I decided to crowd surf when Disturbed started playing. I got pretty banged up when I was up there, I got hit in the groin and on the head, but I knew that this might happen, so it was fine. What I didn't like about this is that when I fell down, this guy came to me angry and complaining and almost got into a fight with me. Why did he come to see me? He was wearing glasses close to the stage and when I fell, his glasses fell to the ground. Like I said, I almost got into a fight with this guy, I don't know if he was just pretending to be tough or not. How come I didn't get into a fight? Simple, he was pushed by someone that was trying to get to the front of the stage. He was then angry at this guy. The pusher wanted to fight him, but his friend didn't let him. While they were arguing, I just turned around and started headbanging.
This was not the only thing that I observed when I was at the festival. Some other things were parents that brought their kids at the front and this girl that wanted to be at the front, but not be pushed and her boyfriend almost screaming at people that were pushing. People, get a grip! It's a METAL CONCERT! YOU WILL GET PUSHED AT THESE! I'm really getting sick and tired of these fucking pussies that complain every time they get pushed!
As for electronics, I've heard people complain that there cameras or whatnot get busted because of the people pushing. Again, don't bring those! I don't bring them for a reason, I don't want them broken. I just bring my cellphone because it's not an expensive one!
I think I'll stop writing here, I'm getting a little pissed off just thinking about these people complaining for things that they should know WILL HAPPEN!
Sunday, July 6, 2008
You sir, are BANNED!
So today, a Sunday, I woke up early for two good reasons. One being that I was meeting a guy to buy a PLAYSTATION®3 and then head for La Ronde (an amusement parc). How early did I wake up? I woke up at 7:20 AM to meet this guy at Lionel-Groulx metro. Very early for a Sunday.
So I get at the metro station wait there until 9:45 when the meeting time was at 9:00 and the guy never showed up. That was just the beginning of my bad luck for the day. Another thing related to this since it's about money, is that a large chunk of money is frozen in my account and I couldn't take out much money. So I had to take out the money from my credit card. And what happened when the guy didn't show up? I went and deposited the money back into the account. And what happened then? The money was frozen as well. Again more bad luck in the morning.
After this little annoyance in the morning, I went to La Ronde and waited for my friend at the entrance. He got there late because his bus was late and had to walk to the metro (again, more bad luck). He calls me up when he gets there and it took me almost 2 minutes to find him because he was not in the line to buy tickets, he was already waiting in line to go in. It turns out that he had bought tickets online and that made them a lot cheaper. So I went with that because I'm a cheap bastard at times. When we were finally able to get to the front of the line, our tickets didn't pass. I initially thought that it was because the paper it was printed on was blurry, but that wasn't the case. We waited for almost 15 minutes for them to tell us to head to security.
Once we were in the security room, we were told that we were being held for fraud. The guy didn't explain anything to us at the beginning. My friend and I were being interrogated for about 40 minutes time. I wasn't answering many questions because I actually didn't know anything. My friend was the one answering almost all the questions and he was stressed, very stressed. One thing that he did that I wouldn't have done was question the security personnel. The guy asked for a description and names of the people he bought the tickets from and my friend was not cooperating well.
15 minutes after this (almost an hour after we got in the room), the guy made us sign some papers and told us that we were to receive a fine ranging from 0-500$ and that we may get criminal records for fraud. Furthermore, we got banned from the parc for the rest of the season or until the investigation came to a close and they find out we're innocent. And then we were escorted off the premises.
That was the best stay I ever had at La Ronde.
After this event, we went to the Old Port, ate some food, and watched a movie.
When the movie was over, I got a call from the PLAYSTATION®3 seller and I met him at the metro station we had initially talked about and I bought myself a nice new system.
That was my Sunday... and this is how I got banned.
So I get at the metro station wait there until 9:45 when the meeting time was at 9:00 and the guy never showed up. That was just the beginning of my bad luck for the day. Another thing related to this since it's about money, is that a large chunk of money is frozen in my account and I couldn't take out much money. So I had to take out the money from my credit card. And what happened when the guy didn't show up? I went and deposited the money back into the account. And what happened then? The money was frozen as well. Again more bad luck in the morning.
After this little annoyance in the morning, I went to La Ronde and waited for my friend at the entrance. He got there late because his bus was late and had to walk to the metro (again, more bad luck). He calls me up when he gets there and it took me almost 2 minutes to find him because he was not in the line to buy tickets, he was already waiting in line to go in. It turns out that he had bought tickets online and that made them a lot cheaper. So I went with that because I'm a cheap bastard at times. When we were finally able to get to the front of the line, our tickets didn't pass. I initially thought that it was because the paper it was printed on was blurry, but that wasn't the case. We waited for almost 15 minutes for them to tell us to head to security.
Once we were in the security room, we were told that we were being held for fraud. The guy didn't explain anything to us at the beginning. My friend and I were being interrogated for about 40 minutes time. I wasn't answering many questions because I actually didn't know anything. My friend was the one answering almost all the questions and he was stressed, very stressed. One thing that he did that I wouldn't have done was question the security personnel. The guy asked for a description and names of the people he bought the tickets from and my friend was not cooperating well.
15 minutes after this (almost an hour after we got in the room), the guy made us sign some papers and told us that we were to receive a fine ranging from 0-500$ and that we may get criminal records for fraud. Furthermore, we got banned from the parc for the rest of the season or until the investigation came to a close and they find out we're innocent. And then we were escorted off the premises.
That was the best stay I ever had at La Ronde.
After this event, we went to the Old Port, ate some food, and watched a movie.
When the movie was over, I got a call from the PLAYSTATION®3 seller and I met him at the metro station we had initially talked about and I bought myself a nice new system.
That was my Sunday... and this is how I got banned.
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
Heavy MTL - I was Caught In A Mosh (Day 2)
So this past weekend was the first Metal festival in
This was also the first time I crowd surfed, and I have to say, it’s quite an experience. I did get hurt during this, but it was fun nonetheless. I also moshed in a lot of pits. I was told that I looked like Tom Araya. I met new people. I ran away from the front for the first time in my life. I almost got into a fight. Now the weekend is over and I have pains all over my body.
I think this was one of the best weekends I’ve ever had.
Day 2: I was completely Caught In A Mosh!!!
Bands playing:
- Death Boat
- Your Favorite Enemies
- Priestess
- Warrant
- Drowning Pool
- Shadows Fall
- Voivod
- Anthrax
- Three Days Grace
- Disturbed
- Motley Crue
After all the energy I had spent on the first day, my body didn’t want to get out of bed. My mind was willing, but the rest of me was not cooperating. I ended up getting out of bed at around 11:00, which meant that I was going to be late for the festival, which I was.
Truth be told, the only band I really wanted to see on Day 2 was Anthrax, so this made it easier for me to stay in bed longer. However, I did head out to be able to get there somewhat early.
When I got to Parc Jean-Drapeau, I had already missed three bands and the fourth one was already playing. I also didn’t care much about this, but I would have preferred seeing all the bands. As I was getting out of the metro and heading to the checkpoint, I saw Desmond, the guy from
After the guys went to complain, we headed out to the hill and we sat down while Warrant was playing. I didn’t know this was the band that plays Cherry Pie, and I have to say, they’re pretty good live. I didn’t see them from up close, but they seemed to put on a decent show.
After they finished playing we went to secure a spot for Shadows Fall and Anthrax. While we were in the Red Stage, Drowning Pool was playing in the Black stage. I don’t know that many songs from them, but I do know Let the Bodies Hit the Floor. So when they played that song I was head banging while staying at the Red Stage.
Drowning Pool finished their set and Shadows Fall was starting. I didn’t know about this band until I recognized a song from Guitar Hero. I have to say, these guys put on a really good show. The singer has long dreads, and he windmills his hair while head banging. Pretty cool. Another thing I really liked about these guys is that the singer jumped off the stage and put the mic in the crowd so that the fans could sing the song. And yet something else I loved, is that the singer thanked the fans for keeping Heavy Metal alive because it was true music unlike the little whiners that can’t get over their break ups. All in all, Shadows Fall put on a good show.
Next up, Voivod. Didn’t listen to them very much because I was at the Red Stage while they were playing. However, from what I heard they seemed pretty good.
And finally, the one band I was waiting for, Anthrax. Before they started playing, I started talking to some other guys in the crowd, one of them was Brian. The other guy, I can’t remember his name, but I remember what he said. He told us that Heavy MTL was his first concert. This guy chose a KICK ASS concert to be his first, but anyways, I digress. Anthrax started playing and they came in really heavy. I mean, their second song of the set was non other than Caught In A Mosh. That was the one song I was waiting for ever since I found out that I was going to see these guys. And as you might suspect, there was a pretty big mosh behind me. I didn’t want to miss anything from their set, which again, was an AMAZING act! The new singer in the band is quite good and the guitarist is A-FUCKING-MAZING! I really loved the lead guitarists… well, guitars. The finishes made them look like they were covered in blood. The music, was the best of the second day, probably because I’m a Thrash Metal fan and because they’re one of The Big Four.
Another reason why I wanted to see Anthrax was because I’ve made it a life goal to see all of The Big Four of Thrash Metal. And with this, I’m one step closer to achieving this goal. I now only have one band left to see: Metallica.
So with Anthrax finishing their set and playing great songs like Caught In A Mosh, Safe Home, and I Am The Law, I was satisfied for the day. It was really disappointing that I wasn’t able to catch a pick or a drumstick from Anthrax, but at least I was able to see them front row!
In all the commotion, I lost sight of the other guys I was with and ended up alone again. However, this didn’t last long because I saw Brian again. While Three Days Grace was preparing their stage, we walked around and also bought some overpriced food. After a little while of this, the music started again, and we went to see them. We didn’t stay long in the crowd as Three Days Grace sounded a little Emo for the festival. Oh well, they were ok, but not fit for a festival named Heavy MTL.
With the Black Stage finishing, the Red Stage was about to start again. Brian and I decided to stay at the back and just enjoy the music… at first. While we were waiting, we saw this guy wearing a weird trench coat, which made him look like a pimp. Brian and I were a little jealous of this guy because all the girls were taking pictures with this guy. After we saw this, we told ourselves that next time something like this happens, we’ll be wearing weird flashy clothes.
Disturbed started playing while we were walking around, so we quickly went to the back of the crowd. Brian suggested that we crowd surf, and at first I said maybe, but there weren’t enough people where we were, so we dismissed the idea… for the moment. We saw that a pit had started, so we pushed our way through the crowd to go there. In the pit, I saw the guy from the day before, Martin, and he was moshing in the same pit. We moshed for almost two songs, and then the other people stopped. One good thing that came out of this is that we saw a spot where we were able to start our surfing. Brian went in first and I followed shortly after that.
This was the first time I ever crowd surfed and I ripped my jeans while going up, but that didn’t really matter. The sad part is that I wasn’t able to go all the way to the front and go back for more surfing. While I was on the crowd, I got hit in the head and in the groin. While the pain was clearly there, I didn’t feel it much because of the adrenaline of the event. As I was saying before, I wasn’t able to go all the way to the end; I fell near the front of the stage. I fell on a guy that was wearing glasses and I almost got into a fight with him. I don’t understand why people think that they won’t get pushed or hit when they’re in the crowd and are trying to get near the stage. It’s a Metal show; they should expect those kinds of things. I, for one, don’t bring anything that can get broken, save for my cell phone. I won’t start a rant in this post; I’ll save that for a rant post later. What made me not get into a fight with this guy was another guy that was trying to get to the front and pushed him to be able to pass. They almost started a fight and while this was happening, I just moved closer to the front to enjoy the show.
It turns out that I fell right next to where Desmond and Nathan were. It was kind of a nice coincidence. So I continued to enjoy Disturbed while inside the crowd. I had not planned on being that close for that band, but it was worth it. The music was great, the crowd was energetic for this band, and I was close to the stage. I also saw Brian crowd surf a couple of more times when I was there, but I didn’t see him after that.
When the act ended, they through the picks and the sticks, and I was able to catch a guitar pick that I have in my wallet right now. I then hung out with Desmond and his friends before the last act started at the Black Stage. We went to the food stand and then to the merch stand. While we were walking around, Motley Crue started playing. Like many people that were there, we just continued walking around and went to Steve’s booth to play some Guitar Hero III. Yes, I played Guitar Hero while I was at a concert. And I won the match as well. We also saw some random guys playing Iron Maiden songs in that booth because they had instruments for people to jam on.
After our little match of GH, we decided that we should go see the band playing. We did pay for our tickets and Motley Crue isn’t a bad band. The guitar playing in that band is quite frankly amazing. The solos are good. However, I didn’t stay until the end of the set because I had to work the next day. So I ended up just watching a little over an hour of the last act.
With this, one of the greatest weekends I’ve ever had ended.
Some little notes:
- I spent a little over 230$ on this event. This includes food, tickets, and the taxi I took on the first day.
- Most of the bands playing had songs in a Guitar Hero game.
- I hate stupid people that think they won’t get hurt.
- The ages ranged from around 2 years old to like 70 years old.
- I’ll think of more things to add later.
Monday, June 23, 2008
Heavy MTL - I was Somewhere Back In Time (Day 1)
So this past weekend was the first Metal festival in
This was also the first time I crowd surfed, and I have to say, it’s quite an experience. I did get hurt during this, but it was fun nonetheless. I also moshed in a lot of pits. I was told that I looked like Tom Araya. I met new people. I ran away from the front for the first time in my life. I almost got into a fight. Now the weekend is over and I have pains all over my body.
I think this was one of the best weekends I’ve ever had.
Day 1: Somewhere Back In Time
Bands playing:
- Unexpect
- Lauren Harris
- Overkill
- 3 Inches of Blood
- Symphony X
- Hatebreed
- Hammerfall
- Mastodon
- Type O Negative
- Dethlok
- Iron Maiden
For the first day, I got to the Parc Jean-Drapeau at around 10:30 because the show doors opened at 12:00. I went there alone, and while I was waiting in line some people started talking to me and told me to stick with them for the show, which I did, for most of it anyways.
After the doors opened, we went straight to the Black Stage, which was the one Iron Maiden was playing in. We secured our spots near the fence on the right side of the stage. I got a little hungry by this point and decided to buy some food. This however was a big mistake. The food and beverages are overpriced to no end at these events. I bought a “trio” for 10.25$ which had the following: a jumbo hot dog, a bottle of sprite, and a bag of chips. The bottle by itself was like 5$ and the hot dog 4.25$. With great pain in my wallet, I dished out the money to get me some grub. When I got back to the guys I was with, they had already made some new friends.
I started talking to the guys there, and it turns out that they were Mexicans, other Latinos that were at the metal festival. It was nice to know that I’m not the only Latino that loves Metal.
Shortly after this money raping event, the first band started playing: Unexpect. I didn’t want to go see them because I was afraid to lose my spot in the Black Stage, but in the end I went to the other stage, the Red Stage. I had never seen this band prior to attending Heavy MTL, so it was something new for me. Unexpect, is a band that was formed in
Unexpect was the only band for which I moved to the Red Stage for. The other bands I just listened to them without seeing them. This is explainable by one simple fact: I didn’t want to lose my spot where I would be able to see Iron Maiden up close.
And so the first act in the Black Stage started: Lauren Harris. She is Steve Harris’ daughter and she is very fine. Her style of music isn’t very Metal, but since she’s the daughter of Iron Maiden’s founder, she gets to play at these events. However, I wouldn’t say that her music is completely bad because that would make me a liar.
The one thing that I will remember from this act (not counting the fact that she is HOT!) is that Lauren’s microphone stopped working near the beginning of the show. The poor girl was singing, but no sound was coming from the speakers. So what did she do after she saw that the technicians weren’t doing anything about it? She took the mic that was on her guitarists’ side.
Overkill played next, but I didn’t see them, I listened to them from afar. And again, the technicians failed in this act as well. The show didn’t start until half an hour later. This made other bands start later than previously scheduled. As for the music, they were decent. They’re not my favourites, but they were ok. The one song I really enjoyed was their cover of Black Sabbath’s War Pigs.
While I was listening to Overkill, some guys came behind me to wait for 3 Inches of Blood to start. The only thing that I will remember from these guys is that they told me that I look like Tom Araya the singer/bassist from Slayer. This really made me happy because Slayer is one of my favourite bands and probably is my favourite band.
After the Red Stage finished its act, 3 Inches of Blood started playing on the Black Stage. This is another band I have a lot of respect for because they’re a Canadian band. Their style is very heavy and has a little power and metalcore in it, but it has more heavy than the last two. This was actually the third time I saw them live and I have to admit that every time I see this band, I get really into it.
Symphony X was up next on the other stage, but I didn’t pay much attention to it.
Hatebreed played after the Red Stage was done. This band, which I’ve seen twice, the first time when they came with System of a Down, was the first one that got the crowd really moving. Their heavy and fast guitar and drums mixed with the violent lyrics got the crown moshing and crowd surfing. And although some of my new friends didn’t like the band very much, I did and I liked the fact that they got the crowd to move like any metal band should be able to. And I won’t lie; I loved the fact that they played the intro to Slayer’s Raining Blood.
And again, I didn’t pay much attention to Hammerfall, because I didn’t want to move from my spot in the Black Stage, but from what I heard it was pretty good.
And who was up next on the Black Stage? Mastodon. This band… this band was putting most of the crowd in front of the stage to sleep. They were… not very good. Their guitar was ok, but the rest was nothing special.
Type O Negative wasn’t as good as people had told me. They were just ok.
Dethlok, this is another band I’ll remember. While I wasn’t able to see them, I was watching the big screen in the middle and they were playing the cartoon version of the band, although there was an actual band playing the music on stage.
Before I continue on to the next band, I have to say that by this time, I wished I didn’t have legs. My legs were killing me and I wanted to sit down somewhere. I almost decided to just go back and sit somewhere on the hill. Also, by this time, I had made some new friends. Some Quebecers from up north and some dudes that live near
And so, finally, the headliner of the day came on stage: Iron Maiden. Before the band went on stage, the crowd was already pushing and already I was fighting for my spot. After a few minutes of this, the band finally came on stage, and what an entrance that was. The set looked like the Powerslave one. It had the Egyptian feel to it. They started playing Aces High and this got the crowd crazy. By this time I was starting to have trouble breathing as I was being crushed between the guys on the fence pushing back and the guys behind me going forward. After the first song, I stayed for half of the second one and decided that I had to jump the fence to get some air. I was about to lose consciousness and I don’t think that anyone would have noticed as there wasn’t any space to actually fall to.
After I jumped the fence I felt a little confused and disoriented. I saw some other of my new friends near the exit in the front. They weren’t able to take the crowd either. I was also out of cash and I couldn’t buy food or water. I had to walk all the way to the entrance to get some cash from an ATM and then I bought a hot dog and a Sprite. That soft drink felt really good to drink. I tried to go back to watching the show, but I wasn’t able to right away. I decided to go sit down next to a fence and recover a little.
After half and hour of recovery, I felt a little normal and went back to enjoy the show. Good thing as well, had I not gone back I would have missed Bruce Dickinson climbing up the side of the stage.
The stage had a lot of pyrotechnical items and when they went off, there were fireballs in the back, fireworks in the front and at the top. The lights were amazing as well. They had at least five rows of lights and they all moved.
Eddy also came out when I went back to see the show. At first you saw the big mummy version of Eddy hanging at the back of the stage, but a little later, the Eddy form Somwhere in time came out, the one that looks like a cyborg. This Eddy was actually walking and was at least twelve feet tall. He had a laser gun that he was using to shoot the people in the crowd and he masturbated behind one of the guitarists (I was pretty far at this point, I didn’t recognize him).
When they finished their set, they played three more songs and they called it a night.
I then took the metro and decided to take a taxi home when I got to Angrignon because I was completely exhausted from the day.
Monday, June 2, 2008
Feel by music
How I love the wonders of music. How I adore music. There’s so much to say about it. All types of it exist throughout the world. Every civilisation, no matter how distanced they were from others, had music in their culture. Why do you think that is possible? Most inventions come from a single civilisation and are then transferred to other ones. However, music existed in so many different forms in all of them and for many reasons: rituals, entertainment, etc. No matter what the reason for its existence, it is something that should never cease to exist. It is the reflection of the soul, but one that cannot be seen, only heard.
When a person creates music, he puts his heart and soul into the piece he’s making. Sometimes, the composer might not notice that what he’s making is a reflection of what lies inside of him. When a person listens to music, they normally have a connection with what they are listening to. This is because the melody the person is hearing is the reflection of the composers’ soul. This is not true for all music however. These days some musicians make music for the money. These songs are hollow ones because they reflect the hollowness that was put into them. They might become popular, but they have no feeling, they have no heart, no soul. These things should not even be called music. Music is the thing that makes you feel, that satisfies a part of you. This feeling should not only be there when listening to it, but also when creating it. If the person making music doesn’t have any feelings, then the complete thing will not give a feeling to the people who will listen to it.
Just like there are different reasons for the music, there are also different forms of it, as well as different ways to interpret the feelings inside your heart. By this I mean that there are genres in music and there are different instruments. Each and every genre interprets different feelings. Thrash metal, for one, can interpret feelings of hate and anger. An example of this would be Slayer’s song Exile (which I like very much) that has a very strong feeling of hate in it (http://youtube.com/watch?v=uLSA-zI18eE). There are also songs that convey a feeling of sadness of all types. Again, an example I can give is the emo genre, which is very emotional, but mostly in sad themes (http://youtube.com/watch?v=cb06Euo-gbs). The examples I have given reflect the feelings mostly through the vocals, but the reflection of the soul is not limited to singing. An example I can give for this is a classical piano piece from Franz Liszt titled Liebestraum No3 (http://youtube.com/watch?v=ejXPcv9MS7s) which reflects the feeling of Love. However, these feelings cannot be showed if the person interpreting them do not show some of the emotions. What I mean by this is that even if a composer writes the music, if the person that will then play it cannot feel the emotion, then the people that will listen to it will be unable to feel it as well.
So would you not agree with me that the best music is the one that you can relate to? It’s like talking to someone about your problems because they understand you, music that shows the same feeling you have will make you feel better because of the feeling it gives you, because the person who played it was probably feeling a little like you are feeling.
And so I ask you know, what is music for you? Does it make you feel? Can you sense what the person playing it feels? Can you sense what the person that composed it was feeling? Can you relate to what you listen to?
Life...
Life. Life? Life… How can you explain this thing called ‘Life’? How can all the experiences you have be contained in this single word called ‘Life’? If you were asked to explain what Life is, how would you do it? How would you put it in words? Would it be something positive? Negative? Or just neutral? Well, here’s what I have to say about Life.
Life is the compilation of all your experiences. Many of these can be bad, but the ones you want to remember, the ones that stick to your memory, or at least should stick to your memory, are the good ones. The events you experience during your time on Earth that make you feel good. The things that make you smile. Remember the people that care for you. These are all things that you can find in your Life. However, most people seem to remember mostly the bad experiences during their short time they are amongst the living. Why is this I wonder? Personally, I think that we remember the things that hurt us because we do not want to experience them again. Unlike the good things that we feel, we want them to happen to us, so we tend to think less of them. Again, we tend to think more about the bad things so we can train ourselves on how to handle them if they ever happen to us again. We think about these events and we try to find ways to better deal with them. While we do these things, we forget about the good times, we let these memories fade.
Now, if I could give you an image on what Life feels like, I would explain it to you in this way. My image of Life is that of a boxing match. This battle, however, does not end in a fifteen rounds of three minutes each. This fight is one that lasts years upon years. You might be asking why I see it as a boxing match. Here’s what I will explain. When a boxer is fighting, he doesn’t want to get knocked down; it’s just not something you want to happen. Because of this, these fighters train themselves so that they won’t be knocked down. Would you not agree that being knocked down is like a bad experience in Life? A boxer that gets knocked down will remember it. A person that experiences something that hurts them will have to surmount this with his will, he’s strength. Don’t you think that it’s similar to a boxer that goes down? They need to feed on their fighting spirit to be able t get up. They don’t want to stay down. They always try as much as they can to get up. The stronger the fight spirit, the less time he will stay on the ground. However, there comes a time when the boxer will just let himself stay down. After this happens, the fighter will train himself more so it doesn’t happen again. Like a hurtful experience, a person will sometimes not be able to get back up, but with time, the person learns how to go on and get back on track. If I image it like a boxing match, then there has to be an adversary. I see Life itself as the adversary.
Experiences, good or bad, are what Life is. No matter the experience. Memories are what are important in it. We tend to remember the bad ones, but we have to keep in mind that the good ones are what keep us going. I once heard a saying that went like so: It’s not the destination that is important, but the journey that leads us to this destination. I think that the person was right in a lot of ways, but it is also true that a good destination is always welcome instead of a bad one. The destination is what will influence the next journey. In my eyes, we are all fighters struggling against the adversary that is Life. If we fall down, we have to get back up; we have to use the most of our fighting spirits. And if we can’t get up, it does not mean that we have to quit. We have to train ourselves so that we can surmount it, and try and not fall down from that same blow a second time.
And now I ask you, how would you explain Life to me? How would you image it?
Saturday, May 17, 2008
Open source and its benefits (English essay)
Well, this is another essay I wrote. It's probably the shittiest one.
Source code is the most important thing in computers. These codes are what tell the computer what to do and how to do it. There exist two types of source codes. The first is private source code made from software companies that want to make as much profit as they can. The second is open source code which is made by groups of people and is free for anyone to use. In a short term period, most people would think that private code is better because the programmers work harder on it so they can make more profit. However, open source software has many benefits that people don’t really know about.
Open source software can be modified by anyone because the source code is available to all. This makes it very easy to polish the software by fixing the bugs that are in it. After an individual fixes the bugs, this person shares the code with everyone on the web. For example, “In January 1999, attackers were able to plant a Trojan Horse version of the TCP/Wrappers tool on a well-known FTP site -- since source code is available, the back door was quickly noticed and removed.” (Ross, 1999, para. 3) This was possible only because the code was available to anyone that could read code. Another benefit from having the source code freely available is that software can be released very early because “In many cases where software firms rely on testing services and beta-testers, open-source collaboration offers engineers a third and often highly effective mechanism for cross-checking underlying code.” (Rais, 2007, para. 2) These are reasons why some software developers decide to make their projects open source. While they don’t make much money out of it, they still do from online ads and donations. Companies can also use this type of software.
Another good thing about open source is that it is completely free to use. People that don’t know how to read source code can still use open source software. An example of this is Open Office, which is the equivalent to Microsoft Office. While they have some differences, the users are just as productive on the free software as they would be on the private owned software Microsoft Office (Claburn, 2007, para. 10). Some companies might also want to use open source because of possible zero purchase cost, near-zero vulnerability to viruses, better security, and lower or no fees for upgrading (gbdirect, 2008). For companies, this means that they can have greater profit at every quarter. When these corporations have to buy private software, they have to buy licenses for every computer in which they will be using the software on. These licenses have to be renewed after a specific time lapse. Failure to comply results in legal action and can cost millions for a company. This can all be avoided by using open source software.
Again, a benefit that can be seen with open source is that all the code in most of the softwares can be reused in another program. This gives developers a greater freedom and because of this, more computer programs can be made with an open source code for people to use and enjoy. This cannot be done with private owned computer software because the code is only made available to programmers of that company. There is a law that prevents any programmer from taking code from an open source code and make it into commercial software. This prevents programmers from making open source into paying software and keeps open source programs alive.
http://www.albion.com/security/intro-7.html
http://open-source.gbdirect.co.uk/migration/benefit.html
http://computerworld.co.nz/news.nsf/devt/2B9B1FE8678CC680CC257299000A233F
http://www.informationweek.com/shared/printableArticle.jhtml?articleID=196901596
Source code is the most important thing in computers. These codes are what tell the computer what to do and how to do it. There exist two types of source codes. The first is private source code made from software companies that want to make as much profit as they can. The second is open source code which is made by groups of people and is free for anyone to use. In a short term period, most people would think that private code is better because the programmers work harder on it so they can make more profit. However, open source software has many benefits that people don’t really know about.
Open source software can be modified by anyone because the source code is available to all. This makes it very easy to polish the software by fixing the bugs that are in it. After an individual fixes the bugs, this person shares the code with everyone on the web. For example, “In January 1999, attackers were able to plant a Trojan Horse version of the TCP/Wrappers tool on a well-known FTP site -- since source code is available, the back door was quickly noticed and removed.” (Ross, 1999, para. 3) This was possible only because the code was available to anyone that could read code. Another benefit from having the source code freely available is that software can be released very early because “In many cases where software firms rely on testing services and beta-testers, open-source collaboration offers engineers a third and often highly effective mechanism for cross-checking underlying code.” (Rais, 2007, para. 2) These are reasons why some software developers decide to make their projects open source. While they don’t make much money out of it, they still do from online ads and donations. Companies can also use this type of software.
Another good thing about open source is that it is completely free to use. People that don’t know how to read source code can still use open source software. An example of this is Open Office, which is the equivalent to Microsoft Office. While they have some differences, the users are just as productive on the free software as they would be on the private owned software Microsoft Office (Claburn, 2007, para. 10). Some companies might also want to use open source because of possible zero purchase cost, near-zero vulnerability to viruses, better security, and lower or no fees for upgrading (gbdirect, 2008). For companies, this means that they can have greater profit at every quarter. When these corporations have to buy private software, they have to buy licenses for every computer in which they will be using the software on. These licenses have to be renewed after a specific time lapse. Failure to comply results in legal action and can cost millions for a company. This can all be avoided by using open source software.
Again, a benefit that can be seen with open source is that all the code in most of the softwares can be reused in another program. This gives developers a greater freedom and because of this, more computer programs can be made with an open source code for people to use and enjoy. This cannot be done with private owned computer software because the code is only made available to programmers of that company. There is a law that prevents any programmer from taking code from an open source code and make it into commercial software. This prevents programmers from making open source into paying software and keeps open source programs alive.
http://www.albion.com/secu
http://open-source.gbdirec
http://computerworld.co.nz
http://www.informationweek
Friday, May 16, 2008
The truth about animal testing
The practice of animal testing for the good of human kind is something that has been practiced for a long time now. These procedures are done in order to find cures for many illnesses the human exhibits. However, many people have seen this as something that is wrong because of many reasons. The main reasons are those of the results obtained, the money involved, and the ethics in the laboratories toward the animals.
Many groups are against animal testing because they believe it to be something unethical. They believe that the life of an animal has the same weight as the life of a human being. However, the governments across the globe feel that this is not the case, but most of them do have conditions on this. Most governments have set rules on how and why animals can be experimented on. For example, in the United Kingdoms, scientists must obtain a personal licence, a project licence, and the place or premises where the research is held must be officially approved by the Home Office. Furthermore, no experimentation can be done if the harm done to the animals outweighs the benefits produced to humans. While all these conditions have to be met, most of the time the last one is not. What happens in most cases is that research reaches a dead end and cannot continue on many drugs because of the results. When this happens, time and money is wasted and many animal lives are forfeit. This is not the only way that animals die in laboratories. Many groups have gone undercover to expose what happens in these research buildings. One of these groups, the National Anti-Vivisection Society (NAVS), went undercover at John Radcliffe Hospital, Oxford University, and documented that laboratory technicians laughed as they smashed live mice against bench tops to kill them. Many other groups have done the same thing and found that animals are kept in small cages that prevent any movement, as well as animals being beaten by enraged technicians, and animals being given products that had already been tested. So while regulations are made by the government, they are rarely respected and the government does not do investigations to find out. This is what most angers animal rights groups.
The reason why animal testing is allowed is because the findings of the research conducted have to benefit the lives of humans. Most drugs in the market are tested on animals. Most of these drugs do help humans live a more comfortable life. However, these are just the drugs that are released. As stated previously, many research projects hit dead ends and the drug is never used on a human being. Another reason why a lot of drugs are not released to the market is that the results received on animals are completely different from the ones that could be received in humans. An example of this is TGN1412, the ‘elephant man’ drug. This drug was tested on macaque monkeys and the dose given was five hundred times the one to be used on humans. Because no adverse reactions occurred on the animal test subjects, human volunteers were recruited. After only a couple of minutes that the drug was ingested by six healthy men, they developed life threatening reactions. This happened in a controlled environment, but similar problems happen outside laboratories and with released products. According to the British Medical Journal, no less than five percent of all hospital admissions are due to adverse drug reactions. Two percent of the patients admitted die. The total of mortalities due to this translates to 10,000 people a year. This is three times the number killed in road accidents in the UK. The reason this happens is because the human species is genetically different from every other animal species. Because of this many drugs that give positive results on animals will yield negative results on humans. Thus making these test wrong because the results that benefit humans are not as high as they should be.
To conclude, while the governments have many regulations in order to protect animals from being abused, many of the laboratories do not respect them and no investigations are done, which make this unethical to a greater degree. Furthermore, the results are more negative than positive for human kind. Many of these drugs give adverse reactions.
Many groups are against animal testing because they believe it to be something unethical. They believe that the life of an animal has the same weight as the life of a human being. However, the governments across the globe feel that this is not the case, but most of them do have conditions on this. Most governments have set rules on how and why animals can be experimented on. For example, in the United Kingdoms, scientists must obtain a personal licence, a project licence, and the place or premises where the research is held must be officially approved by the Home Office. Furthermore, no experimentation can be done if the harm done to the animals outweighs the benefits produced to humans. While all these conditions have to be met, most of the time the last one is not. What happens in most cases is that research reaches a dead end and cannot continue on many drugs because of the results. When this happens, time and money is wasted and many animal lives are forfeit. This is not the only way that animals die in laboratories. Many groups have gone undercover to expose what happens in these research buildings. One of these groups, the National Anti-Vivisection Society (NAVS), went undercover at John Radcliffe Hospital, Oxford University, and documented that laboratory technicians laughed as they smashed live mice against bench tops to kill them. Many other groups have done the same thing and found that animals are kept in small cages that prevent any movement, as well as animals being beaten by enraged technicians, and animals being given products that had already been tested. So while regulations are made by the government, they are rarely respected and the government does not do investigations to find out. This is what most angers animal rights groups.
The reason why animal testing is allowed is because the findings of the research conducted have to benefit the lives of humans. Most drugs in the market are tested on animals. Most of these drugs do help humans live a more comfortable life. However, these are just the drugs that are released. As stated previously, many research projects hit dead ends and the drug is never used on a human being. Another reason why a lot of drugs are not released to the market is that the results received on animals are completely different from the ones that could be received in humans. An example of this is TGN1412, the ‘elephant man’ drug. This drug was tested on macaque monkeys and the dose given was five hundred times the one to be used on humans. Because no adverse reactions occurred on the animal test subjects, human volunteers were recruited. After only a couple of minutes that the drug was ingested by six healthy men, they developed life threatening reactions. This happened in a controlled environment, but similar problems happen outside laboratories and with released products. According to the British Medical Journal, no less than five percent of all hospital admissions are due to adverse drug reactions. Two percent of the patients admitted die. The total of mortalities due to this translates to 10,000 people a year. This is three times the number killed in road accidents in the UK. The reason this happens is because the human species is genetically different from every other animal species. Because of this many drugs that give positive results on animals will yield negative results on humans. Thus making these test wrong because the results that benefit humans are not as high as they should be.
To conclude, while the governments have many regulations in order to protect animals from being abused, many of the laboratories do not respect them and no investigations are done, which make this unethical to a greater degree. Furthermore, the results are more negative than positive for human kind. Many of these drugs give adverse reactions.
Video Games - Popularity
When video games first came out more than twenty years ago, they were a big innovation because of the new way people could play games. Games could now be played on the television and not just on the table. Over the years, these video games have evolved and changed in order to keep the same popularity they had when they first came out.
When these games were first brought to the public, they were very simple and did not have much content. However, even though they were, by today’s standards, flawed, they were very popular because they were something that people had never seen before. And example of this type of game is Pong, which was one of the first games to come out, but was very popular at the time. This game was made to resemble table tennis and was a very simple game to play. Although it was simple, it was still very popular. It was so popular that most people know what this game is just by the name. As time went by, the people who created these games started to try a new approach to keep the games popular.
While keeping the games very simple in terms of controls and graphics, the creators started to implement some story into the video games. With this new addition, video games became more popular. Although the stories that these games had were short and simple, they kept their audience entertained. The game Super Mario Bros was a simple game that had a small story to it. The premise of the game was that the main character had to fight his way to the castle in order to save the princess who was being held captive by a monster. This game had a story that was very simple, but yet again the game itself became very popular and is still known today. As the years went by, the stories in the games became more developed and more in-depth than when they first started. In today’s gaming world, a popular game usually has a good story in it. Other aspects of the games have evolved as well.
An aspect that has become crucial to a game’s success is the graphics that it has. At first, video game graphics were very simple and unrealistic. Today, the graphics that we see in video games are very detailed in order to give them a realistic feeling. If we take the previous game titles, the first one, Pong, had a black background, white lines to show the limits of the field, a white circle for the ball and two white rectangles for paddles. The other game was made some years later, but the changes were very notable. The game had different coloured backgrounds, different character designs and many in-game props. Games that are published in the present have graphics that make the user feel like he is playing something that is real. For example, the game DiRT which is a racing game has car designs that are very realistic as well as scenery design that give it a real feeling. This sense of reality in games has made them increasingly popular to the public. This realistic aspect is not only found in the graphics.
Again, something that has kept video games popular is their realistic feeling. As it was previously mentioned, the graphics have played a major role in this. Another thing that has given games a sense of realism is the ability to interact with elements inside the world of the video game. At first, most of the elements were controlled by an artificial intelligence, but what really made games popular was the ability to interact with other gamers. With this, gamers can create communities inside the game. They make new friends in their cyber life. A game that has this element is called Second Life. The user can buy and sell items, houses, food and many other elements in the game. The user can also go into clubs which are made by other gamers like him. With this, the gamer is able to make new friends and play a game while he’s making them. This ability to make friends while playing a game is something that has made video games very popular.
While it is true that being able to play with someone that lives far from the gamer has made these games popular, it is also true that being able to play with a real friend has also contributed to games popularity. An example of this is with the games Guitar Hero and Rock Band. These games can be played with online friends, but they were made so that people can play together. For example, the latter game is most fun when played with friends at a party because up to four people can play it at the same time. When all four people are playing, each one has to contribute to make a song sound like the real version. One has to sing, another one has to play the drums, and the other two have to play a guitar and bass. There exists a vast variety of games like this that make them popular.
To conclude, the popularity of video games is determined by the constant innovations that the creators put in the games every year. These innovations give the public the feeling that they are always trying something that is new when they play.
When these games were first brought to the public, they were very simple and did not have much content. However, even though they were, by today’s standards, flawed, they were very popular because they were something that people had never seen before. And example of this type of game is Pong, which was one of the first games to come out, but was very popular at the time. This game was made to resemble table tennis and was a very simple game to play. Although it was simple, it was still very popular. It was so popular that most people know what this game is just by the name. As time went by, the people who created these games started to try a new approach to keep the games popular.
While keeping the games very simple in terms of controls and graphics, the creators started to implement some story into the video games. With this new addition, video games became more popular. Although the stories that these games had were short and simple, they kept their audience entertained. The game Super Mario Bros was a simple game that had a small story to it. The premise of the game was that the main character had to fight his way to the castle in order to save the princess who was being held captive by a monster. This game had a story that was very simple, but yet again the game itself became very popular and is still known today. As the years went by, the stories in the games became more developed and more in-depth than when they first started. In today’s gaming world, a popular game usually has a good story in it. Other aspects of the games have evolved as well.
An aspect that has become crucial to a game’s success is the graphics that it has. At first, video game graphics were very simple and unrealistic. Today, the graphics that we see in video games are very detailed in order to give them a realistic feeling. If we take the previous game titles, the first one, Pong, had a black background, white lines to show the limits of the field, a white circle for the ball and two white rectangles for paddles. The other game was made some years later, but the changes were very notable. The game had different coloured backgrounds, different character designs and many in-game props. Games that are published in the present have graphics that make the user feel like he is playing something that is real. For example, the game DiRT which is a racing game has car designs that are very realistic as well as scenery design that give it a real feeling. This sense of reality in games has made them increasingly popular to the public. This realistic aspect is not only found in the graphics.
Again, something that has kept video games popular is their realistic feeling. As it was previously mentioned, the graphics have played a major role in this. Another thing that has given games a sense of realism is the ability to interact with elements inside the world of the video game. At first, most of the elements were controlled by an artificial intelligence, but what really made games popular was the ability to interact with other gamers. With this, gamers can create communities inside the game. They make new friends in their cyber life. A game that has this element is called Second Life. The user can buy and sell items, houses, food and many other elements in the game. The user can also go into clubs which are made by other gamers like him. With this, the gamer is able to make new friends and play a game while he’s making them. This ability to make friends while playing a game is something that has made video games very popular.
While it is true that being able to play with someone that lives far from the gamer has made these games popular, it is also true that being able to play with a real friend has also contributed to games popularity. An example of this is with the games Guitar Hero and Rock Band. These games can be played with online friends, but they were made so that people can play together. For example, the latter game is most fun when played with friends at a party because up to four people can play it at the same time. When all four people are playing, each one has to contribute to make a song sound like the real version. One has to sing, another one has to play the drums, and the other two have to play a guitar and bass. There exists a vast variety of games like this that make them popular.
To conclude, the popularity of video games is determined by the constant innovations that the creators put in the games every year. These innovations give the public the feeling that they are always trying something that is new when they play.
Thursday, May 8, 2008
Psychopaths
Why is it that some people that have a psychopathic mind become killers? I guess it's just a minority of these people that do this. I think it's because they don't have a strong enough will. Weird though.
Thursday, April 24, 2008
Poems, lots of them
As I walk this road called life
A storm is forming in my head
Everything in my head is in strife
All this pain inside, many tears I shed
I look back at all I have done
I Then look straight ahead and start to run
I want to reach a point where I can be at ease
I cannot find it, now save me please
The storm in my head goes on furiously
I see the confusion of my life in images
I try to escape as I tear them up relentlessly
I see my loved ones turn their backs at me
I try to run to them because their faces I must see
I understand that this mean that alone I must be
But this I have to do for my soul to be set free
And as I lay there and let my life pass me by
No longer of sadness but of joy I cry
Every day I try so hard
Every day I try playing a new card
Every day you turn me down
Every day I feel like a clown
When will it be
When will you be with me
Each day I feel farther away
Each day I feel like I'm going astray
Each day I feel like loosing my mind
Each day I feel like I'm falling behind
Do you want me to disappear?
If so I will, for you my dear...
Every day I wake up to a world of emptiness
Every day is a world void of happiness
Darkness covers my weakened soul
It is fragmented, it is but a small piece of a damaged whole
My soul is the reflection of my broken heart
Many times have I tried to begin a new start
Every time it starts to heal
Every time these feelings feel so real
Until it is again shattered into pieces
Until again my pain increases.
The brighter the light, the darker the shadow
Good will be seen, but then evil will follow
You may hide in your dreams
Then you will wake up full of screams
You may think all is well
But you never know where evil might dwell
Don’t look behind when you have a future so bright
Forget about the past, do now what is right
Don’t forget the memories, but don’t let them control you
They will give you the experience and show you what to do
So take the right path, make the right choice
And later you will see that of much you will rejoice
The feelings I have for you are noble and true
How can you trust me, tell me, what can I do?
Let me win your trust, give me a space in your heart
I feel close to you, but somehow we’re also worlds apart
Let me get closer, let me through this invisible wall
Step by step let me get closer, step by step, even if small
I want to hold your hand, touch your hair, kiss your lips
…
I gaze at the stars; I gaze up at the sky so dark
The beautiful lights can only remind me of your striking eyes
These eyes that make inside my heart something more than a spark
This feeling I get this feeling that makes me want to reach up to the skies
This feeling I get whenever you are near
Hold your hand, touch your hair call you “my dear “
All these things that run through my head
Many things I know I should say and should have said
I close my eyes, I hope and I pray
That you will let me in your heart… I can but wait for that day
Nothing I say will ever make things right
I’ve been saying that I’m sorry I’ve been meaning it since that night
I wish I could go back and change the path I chose
Sadly it can’t be, for that’s how this life goes
You’ve seen me when I’m well and now you see my worst
There’s nothing I can do now, I wish you’d only seen the first
I see now that I don’t deserve anything that can come from you
Being rejected and hated is all I am really due
Again I must say how sorry I really am
I know I was stupid and so I take whatever you condemn
I ask little of people, I ask only of them a little honesty
I ask this because it is something that is very much important
I will always give this honesty when I discuss with you
For this is something that will always keep relations strong
Tell me why must there be between us dishonesty?
Tell me; is this something for you so unimportant?
Tell me why between me and you, this you do?
Please tell me what I have done that is so wrong…?
No longer will I be the nice person from before
I will stop being the one that is always nice
No longer will I take everything and all ignore
Why keep all inside when all I can release?
No, I won’t be the one to be stepped on
I’m through with being the one and only pawn
It’s time to collect on all those debts
It’s time I acted without regrets!
It’s funny how I’ve been let down all this time
Always been the one that has stayed out of crime
Well now it’s time to act the way all society flows
I’m done taking hits, now I’ll be giving the blows!
Forget the word Hope, and learn of Despair
Impossible to resist for this is too much for me to bear
Stop all feelings of love and gain nothing but hate
Try as much as I may, there's nothing for me but to wait
No more will I be the nice naive guy
It is impossible for that part must die
All this will have me inside reborn
And for the past life no one will mourn
Thread by thread your web was spun
Once it started it couldn't be undone
Finally complete and a new victim showed
And then it got stuck like a pole in the road
Enchanted was your victim by your fake charm
Never knowing of the soon to come harm
You spun your web and I immediately got stuck
Your delightful enchantment made it seem like luck
Now I know there was no luck for me
Now all I want is from your web to be free...
Many want what you have from birth
Many will fight for it, DIE for this
For they can see what it is really worth
Unlike us who
A storm is forming in my head
Everything in my head is in strife
All this pain inside, many tears I shed
I look back at all I have done
I Then look straight ahead and start to run
I want to reach a point where I can be at ease
I cannot find it, now save me please
The storm in my head goes on furiously
I see the confusion of my life in images
I try to escape as I tear them up relentlessly
I see my loved ones turn their backs at me
I try to run to them because their faces I must see
I understand that this mean that alone I must be
But this I have to do for my soul to be set free
And as I lay there and let my life pass me by
No longer of sadness but of joy I cry
Every day I try so hard
Every day I try playing a new card
Every day you turn me down
Every day I feel like a clown
When will it be
When will you be with me
Each day I feel farther away
Each day I feel like I'm going astray
Each day I feel like loosing my mind
Each day I feel like I'm falling behind
Do you want me to disappear?
If so I will, for you my dear...
Every day I wake up to a world of emptiness
Every day is a world void of happiness
Darkness covers my weakened soul
It is fragmented, it is but a small piece of a damaged whole
My soul is the reflection of my broken heart
Many times have I tried to begin a new start
Every time it starts to heal
Every time these feelings feel so real
Until it is again shattered into pieces
Until again my pain increases.
The brighter the light, the darker the shadow
Good will be seen, but then evil will follow
You may hide in your dreams
Then you will wake up full of screams
You may think all is well
But you never know where evil might dwell
Don’t look behind when you have a future so bright
Forget about the past, do now what is right
Don’t forget the memories, but don’t let them control you
They will give you the experience and show you what to do
So take the right path, make the right choice
And later you will see that of much you will rejoice
The feelings I have for you are noble and true
How can you trust me, tell me, what can I do?
Let me win your trust, give me a space in your heart
I feel close to you, but somehow we’re also worlds apart
Let me get closer, let me through this invisible wall
Step by step let me get closer, step by step, even if small
I want to hold your hand, touch your hair, kiss your lips
…
I gaze at the stars; I gaze up at the sky so dark
The beautiful lights can only remind me of your striking eyes
These eyes that make inside my heart something more than a spark
This feeling I get this feeling that makes me want to reach up to the skies
This feeling I get whenever you are near
Hold your hand, touch your hair call you “my dear “
All these things that run through my head
Many things I know I should say and should have said
I close my eyes, I hope and I pray
That you will let me in your heart… I can but wait for that day
Nothing I say will ever make things right
I’ve been saying that I’m sorry I’ve been meaning it since that night
I wish I could go back and change the path I chose
Sadly it can’t be, for that’s how this life goes
You’ve seen me when I’m well and now you see my worst
There’s nothing I can do now, I wish you’d only seen the first
I see now that I don’t deserve anything that can come from you
Being rejected and hated is all I am really due
Again I must say how sorry I really am
I know I was stupid and so I take whatever you condemn
I ask little of people, I ask only of them a little honesty
I ask this because it is something that is very much important
I will always give this honesty when I discuss with you
For this is something that will always keep relations strong
Tell me why must there be between us dishonesty?
Tell me; is this something for you so unimportant?
Tell me why between me and you, this you do?
Please tell me what I have done that is so wrong…?
No longer will I be the nice person from before
I will stop being the one that is always nice
No longer will I take everything and all ignore
Why keep all inside when all I can release?
No, I won’t be the one to be stepped on
I’m through with being the one and only pawn
It’s time to collect on all those debts
It’s time I acted without regrets!
It’s funny how I’ve been let down all this time
Always been the one that has stayed out of crime
Well now it’s time to act the way all society flows
I’m done taking hits, now I’ll be giving the blows!
Forget the word Hope, and learn of Despair
Impossible to resist for this is too much for me to bear
Stop all feelings of love and gain nothing but hate
Try as much as I may, there's nothing for me but to wait
No more will I be the nice naive guy
It is impossible for that part must die
All this will have me inside reborn
And for the past life no one will mourn
Thread by thread your web was spun
Once it started it couldn't be undone
Finally complete and a new victim showed
And then it got stuck like a pole in the road
Enchanted was your victim by your fake charm
Never knowing of the soon to come harm
You spun your web and I immediately got stuck
Your delightful enchantment made it seem like luck
Now I know there was no luck for me
Now all I want is from your web to be free...
Many want what you have from birth
Many will fight for it, DIE for this
For they can see what it is really worth
Unlike us who
Monday, April 21, 2008
How to be the perfect gentleman
1. When she asks how she looks, shrug and say "could be better." This will keep her on her toes, and girls love that.
2. Never hold her hand. This can be interpreted as a sign of weakness. If she grabs your hand, squeeze hers really hard until she cries (this
will impress her by showing her what a strong man you are).
3. Once a month, sneak up on her from behind and knock her over. Girls are like dogs; they love to be roughed up.
4. Call her in the middle of the night to ask if she's sleeping. If
she is, say "you better be." Repeat this 4 or 5 times until morning. This will show her you care.
5. When she is upset about something, suggest to her that it might be her fault. This will pave the way for her own personal improvement, and every girl needs some improvement.
6. Recognize the small things, as they usually mean the most. Then when she's sleeping, steal all her small things and break them, because jewelry is for wussies and Asian ladies.
7. If you're talking to another girl, make sure she's looking. When she is, stare into her eyes, mouth the words "F__ you" and grab the other girl's ass. Girls love competition.
8. Tell her you're taking her out to dinner. Drive for miles so she thinks it's going to be really special. Then take her to a burning tire yard. When she starts to get upset, tell her you were just kidding and now you're really going to take her to dinner. Then drive her home. When she starts crying and asks why you would do something like that, lean over and whisper very quietly into her ear "...because I can."
9. Introduce her to your friends as "some chick." Women love those special nicknames.
10. Play with her hair. Play with it HARD.
11. Warm her up when she's cold...and not by giving her your jacket, because then you might get cold. Rather, look her in the eye and say "if you don't stop BiiTCHing about the cold right now, you're going to be BiiTCHing about a black eye." The best way to get warm is with fear.
12. Take her to a party. When you get there, she'll have to go to the bathroom (they always do). Leave immediately. Come back right when the party is dying and yell at her the whole way home for ditching you all night.
13. Make her laugh. A good way to do this is if she has a small pet. Kick the pet. I always find stuff like that funny...why shouldn't girls?
14. Let her fall asleep in your arms. When she's fast asleep, wait 10 minutes, then jump up and scream in her ear. Repeat until she goes home and you can use your arms for more important things (like basketball).
15. Spit often. I hear girls like guys that spit.
16. If you care about her, never ever tell her. This will only give her self-confidence, then you can never turn her into the object she deep down desires to be.
17. Every time you're in her house, steal one of her shoes, earrings or anything else that comes in pairs. Only take one of the pair. This way, she'll go crazy.
18. Take her out to dinner. Right when she's about to order, interrupt and say "no, she's not hungry." Make her watch you eat. Girls love a guy that speaks for her.
19. Look her in the eyes and smile. Then punch her in the face. Girls love a spontaneous guy.
20. Give her one of your t-shirts, and make sure it has your smell on it (but not a sexy cologne smell...a bad smell. You know what I'm talking about).
21. When it's raining, keep asking her if she's crying. She'll say
"no, it's just the rain." Ten minutes later, turn to her and just scream at her to stop crying. Girls like a tough man.
22. Titty twisters and plenty of them.
23. If you're listening to music, and she asks to hear it, tell her
no. This way she'll think you're mysterious.
24. Remember her birthday, but don't get her anything. Teach her that material objects arent important. The only thing that's important is that she keeps you happy, and your happiness is the greatest present she can ever get.
25. When she gives you a present on your birthday, Christmas or just whenever, take it and tell her you love it. Then, next time you know she's coming over on a trash day, leave the trash can open and have the present visibly sticking out of the can. Girls actually don't like this one that much, but I think it's funny.
26. If she's mad at you for not calling her when you say you will, promise her that you will call her at a certain time of the day. This will make sure that she waits by the phone. Tell her when you call that you're going to tell her a special surprise. Now she'll be really excited. Don't call.
2. Never hold her hand. This can be interpreted as a sign of weakness. If she grabs your hand, squeeze hers really hard until she cries (this
will impress her by showing her what a strong man you are).
3. Once a month, sneak up on her from behind and knock her over. Girls are like dogs; they love to be roughed up.
4. Call her in the middle of the night to ask if she's sleeping. If
she is, say "you better be." Repeat this 4 or 5 times until morning. This will show her you care.
5. When she is upset about something, suggest to her that it might be her fault. This will pave the way for her own personal improvement, and every girl needs some improvement.
6. Recognize the small things, as they usually mean the most. Then when she's sleeping, steal all her small things and break them, because jewelry is for wussies and Asian ladies.
7. If you're talking to another girl, make sure she's looking. When she is, stare into her eyes, mouth the words "F__ you" and grab the other girl's ass. Girls love competition.
8. Tell her you're taking her out to dinner. Drive for miles so she thinks it's going to be really special. Then take her to a burning tire yard. When she starts to get upset, tell her you were just kidding and now you're really going to take her to dinner. Then drive her home. When she starts crying and asks why you would do something like that, lean over and whisper very quietly into her ear "...because I can."
9. Introduce her to your friends as "some chick." Women love those special nicknames.
10. Play with her hair. Play with it HARD.
11. Warm her up when she's cold...and not by giving her your jacket, because then you might get cold. Rather, look her in the eye and say "if you don't stop BiiTCHing about the cold right now, you're going to be BiiTCHing about a black eye." The best way to get warm is with fear.
12. Take her to a party. When you get there, she'll have to go to the bathroom (they always do). Leave immediately. Come back right when the party is dying and yell at her the whole way home for ditching you all night.
13. Make her laugh. A good way to do this is if she has a small pet. Kick the pet. I always find stuff like that funny...why shouldn't girls?
14. Let her fall asleep in your arms. When she's fast asleep, wait 10 minutes, then jump up and scream in her ear. Repeat until she goes home and you can use your arms for more important things (like basketball).
15. Spit often. I hear girls like guys that spit.
16. If you care about her, never ever tell her. This will only give her self-confidence, then you can never turn her into the object she deep down desires to be.
17. Every time you're in her house, steal one of her shoes, earrings or anything else that comes in pairs. Only take one of the pair. This way, she'll go crazy.
18. Take her out to dinner. Right when she's about to order, interrupt and say "no, she's not hungry." Make her watch you eat. Girls love a guy that speaks for her.
19. Look her in the eyes and smile. Then punch her in the face. Girls love a spontaneous guy.
20. Give her one of your t-shirts, and make sure it has your smell on it (but not a sexy cologne smell...a bad smell. You know what I'm talking about).
21. When it's raining, keep asking her if she's crying. She'll say
"no, it's just the rain." Ten minutes later, turn to her and just scream at her to stop crying. Girls like a tough man.
22. Titty twisters and plenty of them.
23. If you're listening to music, and she asks to hear it, tell her
no. This way she'll think you're mysterious.
24. Remember her birthday, but don't get her anything. Teach her that material objects arent important. The only thing that's important is that she keeps you happy, and your happiness is the greatest present she can ever get.
25. When she gives you a present on your birthday, Christmas or just whenever, take it and tell her you love it. Then, next time you know she's coming over on a trash day, leave the trash can open and have the present visibly sticking out of the can. Girls actually don't like this one that much, but I think it's funny.
26. If she's mad at you for not calling her when you say you will, promise her that you will call her at a certain time of the day. This will make sure that she waits by the phone. Tell her when you call that you're going to tell her a special surprise. Now she'll be really excited. Don't call.
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
Two of the Big Four... no wait, soon to be Three!
So I've made it one of my life goals to see all four of the Big Four of Thrash Metal. Well some of you might not know who these bands are, so I'll name them for you. We have Metallica, Anthrax, Slayer, and Megadeth. These four bands are the ones responsible for making the Thrash Metal genre. With their fast guitar playing and fast drumming, it's a head bangers heavenly music.
Up until now, I've been graced with seeing two of these magnificent bands. Slayer and Megadeth. Although Metallica did come to Montreal a couple of years ago, I didn't go see them because I wasn't a concert junky back then. However, once I started going to concerts and started listening to Thrash, I couldn't forgive myself for not going to the concert. This being said, I didn't miss my chances to see Megadeth and Slayer when they came to Montreal.
This coming June, I will be yet again blessed with seeing one more of the Big Four, Anthrax. If I'm not mistaken, they hadn't toured in a while, so I'm very lucky that these guys are coming to the new festival that will be held in Montreal called Heavy MTL. This festival is dedicated to Metal. It will host many great bands like Iron Maide, 3 Inches Of Blood, and many, many more!
So, I hope to see many of you during this great weekend of June.
Metal is forever! \m/
Up until now, I've been graced with seeing two of these magnificent bands. Slayer and Megadeth. Although Metallica did come to Montreal a couple of years ago, I didn't go see them because I wasn't a concert junky back then. However, once I started going to concerts and started listening to Thrash, I couldn't forgive myself for not going to the concert. This being said, I didn't miss my chances to see Megadeth and Slayer when they came to Montreal.
This coming June, I will be yet again blessed with seeing one more of the Big Four, Anthrax. If I'm not mistaken, they hadn't toured in a while, so I'm very lucky that these guys are coming to the new festival that will be held in Montreal called Heavy MTL. This festival is dedicated to Metal. It will host many great bands like Iron Maide, 3 Inches Of Blood, and many, many more!
So, I hope to see many of you during this great weekend of June.
Metal is forever! \m/
Saturday, April 5, 2008
Learn what to say if you're a japanese women being attacked
When you're being attacked by English speaking men and you're a Japanese woman, you need to know what to say. Well, these people know how to teach you what to say.
Thursday, April 3, 2008
Religious people need to smoke some too sometimes
Ever wondered how Christian people like to smoke up their joints? Well, they have a way! It's called the Holy Cross joint.
Watch how it's done!
Watch how it's done!
How to roll a joint.... celebrity style
Ever wondered how some celebrities roll up their joints? Well, why not watch?
Saturday, March 8, 2008
Cat concentration camps
While I was lurking in a forum, I cam across a thread titled "Kitty Auschwitz".This one caught my attention.
The thread was about something that is happening in China at the moment. Apparently, the government has warned the people that cats are disease carriers and should get rid of them.
While it is true that some cats are diseased, most of them are not. People fear that their cats might be diseased, so they just throw them on the streets to fend for themselves until the officials get their and put them in cages so small that the cats cannot turn around.
The cats that are rounded up are taken to some facilities which can only be described as cat concentration camps. The cats are taken their and left to die. In these facilities, the cats that get diseased are left to suffer and die in agony, they don't give the cats a lethal injection.
However, not everyone is throwing away the cats. There are some groups that take cats in. There's even a lady that has over 250 cats in her home.
You can read more on this at the daily globe website.
The thread was about something that is happening in China at the moment. Apparently, the government has warned the people that cats are disease carriers and should get rid of them.
While it is true that some cats are diseased, most of them are not. People fear that their cats might be diseased, so they just throw them on the streets to fend for themselves until the officials get their and put them in cages so small that the cats cannot turn around.
The cats that are rounded up are taken to some facilities which can only be described as cat concentration camps. The cats are taken their and left to die. In these facilities, the cats that get diseased are left to suffer and die in agony, they don't give the cats a lethal injection.
However, not everyone is throwing away the cats. There are some groups that take cats in. There's even a lady that has over 250 cats in her home.
You can read more on this at the daily globe website.
Saturday, February 16, 2008
Poetics No1
Poetry, is there any better way for someone to express their feelings? Maybe music and art. The point is, poetry can let people express their inner feelings. Everyone can write a good poem if they are sincere in what they're writing. Well that's what I believe anyways.
I enjoy writing poems, but people tell me that my poems are sad. Well I guess I'm a sad person then. Your art is a mirror to how you are inside. What is in your art is your own reflection.
So with this, I give you a poem: (more to come soon)
As I walk this road called life
A storm is forming in my head
Everything in my head is in strife
All this pain inside, many tears I shed
I look back at all I have done
I Then look straight ahead and start to run
I want to reach a point where I can be at ease
I cannot find it, now save me please
The storm in my head goes on furiously
I see the confusion of my life in images
I try to escape as I tear them up relentlessly
I see my loved ones turn their backs at me
I try to run to them because their faces I must see
I understand that this mean that alone I must be
But this I have to do for my soul to be set free
And as I lay there and let my life pass me by
No longer of sadness but of joy I cry
I enjoy writing poems, but people tell me that my poems are sad. Well I guess I'm a sad person then. Your art is a mirror to how you are inside. What is in your art is your own reflection.
So with this, I give you a poem: (more to come soon)
As I walk this road called life
A storm is forming in my head
Everything in my head is in strife
All this pain inside, many tears I shed
I look back at all I have done
I Then look straight ahead and start to run
I want to reach a point where I can be at ease
I cannot find it, now save me please
The storm in my head goes on furiously
I see the confusion of my life in images
I try to escape as I tear them up relentlessly
I see my loved ones turn their backs at me
I try to run to them because their faces I must see
I understand that this mean that alone I must be
But this I have to do for my soul to be set free
And as I lay there and let my life pass me by
No longer of sadness but of joy I cry
Friday, February 8, 2008
Video Games Live - Montreal 08
Ok, so where do I start. Ah yes! So I went to Video Games Live Montreal to listen to some good ol' video game music hahaha!
The event was organized by two video game music composers and the orchestra was a local one (YAY MONTREAL!!!).
A lot of classic game music was played and a lot of new ones also. Some of the games played were: Metal Gear Solid, Legend of Zelda, Sonic, Mario, Final Fantasy, Warcraft, StarCraft and many more!
I will be uploading videos of the event on youtube pretty soon.
Ok, so the orchestra also played some on-the-fly music when some competitions were being held on stage. One of them was a guy playing Space Invaders, and the other one was two guys competing in Frogger. The orchestra would play music depending on what the players did on screen.
There were other competitions being held, like a draw for a PSP during the 20 minutes break.
The sound quality was pretty good at the Theatre St-Denis. The view from the balcony was pretty good and the crowd was great.
The event even had a special guest, a guy that plays Mario piano songs on youtube. This guy was amazing on stage, he even performed blind folded while playing Mario music. He was one great addition to the event!
All in all, I don't have anything negative to say about this event and I recommend it to everyone that likes music to go see this when they come back!
Beyond Good And Evil:
The event was organized by two video game music composers and the orchestra was a local one (YAY MONTREAL!!!).
A lot of classic game music was played and a lot of new ones also. Some of the games played were: Metal Gear Solid, Legend of Zelda, Sonic, Mario, Final Fantasy, Warcraft, StarCraft and many more!
I will be uploading videos of the event on youtube pretty soon.
Ok, so the orchestra also played some on-the-fly music when some competitions were being held on stage. One of them was a guy playing Space Invaders, and the other one was two guys competing in Frogger. The orchestra would play music depending on what the players did on screen.
There were other competitions being held, like a draw for a PSP during the 20 minutes break.
The sound quality was pretty good at the Theatre St-Denis. The view from the balcony was pretty good and the crowd was great.
The event even had a special guest, a guy that plays Mario piano songs on youtube. This guy was amazing on stage, he even performed blind folded while playing Mario music. He was one great addition to the event!
All in all, I don't have anything negative to say about this event and I recommend it to everyone that likes music to go see this when they come back!
Beyond Good And Evil:
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